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Lalala

No. of days of work: 7
No. of lunch: 3

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free. In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored. You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change. You would be forced to break up with someone who was insecure and in constant need of reassurance. Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with. Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. You think of marriage something you've always wanted... though you haven't really thought about it. In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

I cried

I cried! Actually cried!

I'm the type that will not shed a tear when I watch movie. Will laugh when everybody is sniffing away. Won't cry when I read a touching book. But I actually cried!

Can't believe it. Been hearing lots of talk about people crying but I always thought I wouldn't be one of those. Didn't think it was that bad until I felt unappreciated. Then everything just flowed. Had to sit down and cry. Think I scared everybody.

Better not cry again.

what's your worst holiday?

Sundaytimes has a frequent flyer section where they'll feature a person each week to talk about their best and worst experience. The guy they featured yesterday talked about his experience at this very famous brand at Champs-Elysees, Paris. He had the exact same experience as me! The brand is regarded as a status symbol around the world, with branches world-wide including Singapore, but yet, in the city the brand originated from, I got nothing but lousy service that cannot be compared to the man selling baguette by the roadside.

"We were waiting for someone to attend to us for 25 minutes when a guy walked in and got attended to immediately." Yup, HELLO! I'm here. Been here for very long!! But here is this guy with a nice suit and you run to him with your tongue sticking out and he didn't even buy anything! "I went to the supervisor and asked him politely what the deal was, and his excuse was that he didn't see us." Couldn't even find any supervisor that I could complain to. Had to ask the security person there. If I didn't make myself seen or heard, I'll probably be still standing there right this moment and waiting for the people with their nose in the air to accidentally bump into me before they realize that I'm in the shop. The most horrid part was they didn't even prepare the tax rebate form properly after I spent a bomb in that shop. Wasted my time at the airport. I'll never ever buy anything from this terrible brand again.

I really like Paris, everything was great except for this stupid incident. And it's the last thing i did in Paris somemore. And nope, this trip is not my worst holiday. My worst holiday was to a nearby island, nothing on that tiny island except the resort. The pool looked great in the photo but it turned out to be as big as the bathtub in the toilet. Wanted to post some photos but I think I lost the cd containing the photos. It's somewhere but my house is still messy from all the mbbs studying. No time and no mood to pack. The bag that I brought for my clinical exams is still where I left it on my last exam day. Tendon tapper and everthing still inside. What is wrong with me??!!

Going to start work soon. The night duty list came out today. Quite strange to see my name there. Feeling excited, yet nervous and terrified, depressed yet happy at the same time.

Clinical exam number 1

I'm on a super high right now. I feel like jumping on a trampoline. Think I drank too much coffee and I'm kind of addicted to coke now. Anyway more about my first clinical exam.

was super nervous right before my exam. My heart was pounding since I woke up but when I saw the examiner, I suddenly became really calm. Don't know who my examiners were but one of them looked really familiar. He started chatting with me as I walked towards my first case. Kind of reminded me of my driving exam, the examiner was talking to me the entire time until I thought he forgot to test me. Anyway, since I passed my driving test, I should be able to pass this clinical right? He asked me what long case I was getting. Paeds long. so do you like paeds long or short? I'm happy with what I got. So you are one of those who want to do paediatrics? No sir. I'm not intending of doing paeds. Then why do you prefer paeds? I wanted to say because there are fewer types of long cases for paeds and it's easier to spot what will come out and I get a break between my med short and surgery exam. But I didn't because it would sound like I'm a slacker. So I said, I like paeds because I enjoy being around children as they are cute.

yup. Children are really cute but THAT'S NOT WHY YOU WANT TO DO PAEDS LONG!!! I sounded like a BIMBO!!!!!! And this all happened before I even saw my first patient. Anyway my first case was a woman was a massive hepatomegaly and a curious mass in the left iliac fossa. I happily said that I think it's a colorectal cancer and metastases to the liver. After lots of digging, I finally said polycystic kidney disease with polycystic liver. And then the examiner said, can the diagnosis be polycystic liver disease when there is such a huge hepatomegaly? So, the clever little me said, yes because massive cystic hepatomegaly can occur especially in women and it is not common in man. (the patient was a woman btw) And the examiner eyes nearly popped out, are you sure?? Yes, sir, I'm sure. I read it in the book.

Ok then I went onto the next case. And IN THE MIDDLE of my examination of the cranial nerves, the same examiner asked me, where did you read the polycystic liver information from? Baliga, sir. 250 cases in clinical medicine. And he actually copied down the book name!!!! I almost fainted on the spot. Then after my exam, I couldn't find a single person who heard of this fact. But I really read it and I can prove it!!

Page 323 of Baliga.
Unlike renal cyst formation, liver cysts seem to be influenced by female hormones. Whilst men and women have the same frequecy of liver cysts, massive liver cysts are almost exclusively found in women. Mr Baliga, you better be correct because only you seem to know about this fact.

My examiners were really nice. Can't complain much, but they should be looking at me examine the cranial nerves and not thinking about what I said in the previous case!! Second case was ok, screwed up my third case though. it was a massive pleural effusion but I said it was consolidation. Whatever.

my pre-auricular sinus is infected. Because I'm super neurotic and I keep squeezing the sebum with my dirty fingers whenever I study so it got infected. I don't know what are the complications, but judging by it's location, I might get otitis media and become deaf. Or get meningitis/ brain abscess and become stupid (not that I'm smart now), or just get disseminated sepsis and die. Whatever.